I haven't had time for the last two years to sit and think of how much has happened since I've lost a friend. Yes, I do cry but when I cry it's just cause I'm feeling grief and miss her. I need time to think of the "journey", I don't know what I need. I guess I really need a good cry. Maybe I feel bad for being such a bad friend to you Vi. I always think of you before I go to bed at night but somehow I dont think that cuts it for you babe. I guess I'm scared of what you'll think if I've moved and accepted that you've gone. I'm also scared that I've had so much fun without you and what you'll think of it because I remember you never liked to miss out. I know people say people are there in spirit but it's still a thought that sticks to my head. Well Happy Birthday Vi, I wanna thank you for touching my life, for the friend you were to me and hope that you are very well. I'll never meet a person like you, you're one in a million. :) x